Cheeter.

I must apologize for my absence I have been surprisingly busy. Although I have not yet found a way to stay off the computer. I am starting to think that the so very heavenly summer is more of a penetrable doom. I feel a sense of abandonment between me and my lovely blog, for I have neglected its presence as if it was a toilet. Now that I dip into a deeper pool of thought about toilets, they are not neglected at all.....oh well. Yet my quote "business" is more of me being preoccupied on tumblr. So her is my condolence dear blog if I don't utilize you as much. Just no I am not cheating so forgive me. 

Maturity.

Maybe my unarguable side that has recently sprouted is not me trying to impress. Maybe my helpfulness and patience is not me trying to hard. Maybe it is me maturing. As I grow older the responsibility of adolescence are frequently increasing. As I mature my good and not angry side emerges from the watery depths.  Although this blog is a fleeting moment I find myself happy of how far I have come in the past year. Entering high school may have been my water and my sun that I need to become the flower I am. I pondered on a thought as I washed away my reflection on the car window, is my past truly going away and slowly denigrating. Anything bad or evil that maybe I have done will vanish as if I have done nothing but contribute my 10 cents and left? After all the the only person that expects me to be perfect is myself. So why try so hard. Why not let the water flow rather than build a dam.

Car.

One minute away from being 4. YES the day is almost over so I can die slowly into a deep sleep. I have been waiting so long for this day to be done. Although I have no social life as I have mentioned, I have been looking forward to my warm blankets cuddling me all day. I guess...put the evidence where the mark is I stayed in bed till noon so why not get back in 4 more hours. Well to tell you the truth I am not looking forward to sleeping at all I am looking forward to tomorrow and the bright things it has to offer like...a CAR. Oh yippie jump for joy and the 3 hours I get to be held captive in a metal tube or box or disfigured thing. Whatever it is I am surprisingly existed to have plenty of time to sit in solidarity before asked to unload it just the way I PACKED it. So things may be looking up for at least the weekend.

Breakthrough.

How is it possible that all of any energy can leave a human body? Or is it that my long nights of having no life and watching TV by myself all night. If I were a guy I would say this is dank. Even though I don't know what the hell it means so as my living existence goes to many is 0%. Other than my non-existent social life stands I might have a minor breakthrough tomorrow. I get to depart on a journey to another land where no one has service no one can reach me( not like they would want to but...) in any way possible. THE LOOKOUT TOWER. It brings souls to life with its divine nature and fiery sunsets. In all total honesty I am way existed.    

Moments.

Although life is short it has those unforgettable moments. The ones you hold for quite a while until they suddenly fade into darkness. The ones you desperately try to grasp with every limb  in your body to hold onto it still seems to slip away. It is almost as if the universe has given you a sign of unforgettable hate towards the things that make a person happy. As these memories fade so does my want to even have them. What is the point anyway other than to flaunt the amazing times I had with him last summer. What does it matter that has come and gone and I still have no life. Did I mention its summer again and I find myself sitting precariously in front of my computer screen wondering where it all went.

Live.

The urge for food lingers on the bottom of my belly. I needed some source of protein before my entire self judgement disintegrates. As the minutes tick down to my survival ending I contemplate whether to get out of my padded abyss of heaven or face the unwanted needs for natural necessity. My time was limited I needed to find the decision before my last breath took me into a deep and unwanted sleep. Well enough of my mama drama I am going to get up and leave my heaven for my existence.

Plan.

I have had a realization of how to change sophomore year forever. This will make dreams become fantasies. It will take days to processes this unamaganable theory. This is the answer to every problem I have had with that one MAN. It will not suck, I guarantee...wait no but still, hold on to you unmentionables because I am going to blow your panties off. Now I am going to change the views of many. Rosa and I will practically change places and convince our MEN they got it all WRONG.